bAbyDeviL

2008-05-24T23:52:00.002+08:00

hmmm..thanks for ur choclate and my fav. sweets... hmmm my brother say the choclate is nice and he say thanks to u .. haha.. next time dun waste the money buy all tis stuff le la... eat too much later he will become fat fat... ahha... anyway thanks..

hmmm... so bored...

2008-05-21T14:05:00.002+08:00

so funny.. and i didnt even knew.. pls CHANGE it(ur insurance)...cos i dun wan anyone to badmouth me too or scold u for being STUPID!! dun put under my name..i'm someone not worth it and even anything happen to u now(touch wood)i wont take a single cent from ur insurance too....and thanks to u... i realise alot of things too...so much things u say now i den realise tat i actually had so much things undone?? haha.. nvm ya...

2008-05-14T10:00:00.002+08:00

i'm trying so hard so hard...to start everything afresh...in the past, too many things had happen... i lie to u,i admit...but all those lies doesnt matter at all cos to me all is jus white lies...believe it or not is up to u...

how impt & how much i love u in the past,how i really treat u, how i cos of u i dont even mind giving up my everything...now we break le, everyone include u seems to for4 how much i'm in love with u in th past...the promises i made had broke cos i left u..i promiseu alot of things when i'm with u but ask urself why being with u for 4years plus le,i give up tis r/s?? do u think i'm not sad too?? who knows when i'm totally give up everything when i left u??who knows when i'm crying deep down in my heart when i know we cant be together anymore...how determine i need to be??how hard i push myself??in the end,i choose to let go...and i move on...

in my heart, u still stand a place, tat's y i dun wanna lose u as a friend even we had break off...to me...everything seems to be a dream...a dream abt a devil and a angel...now awake,and everything seem so different le...

by the word u say, pls touch ur heart and recall back how i treat u and ur family...and oso ur devil!!!am i tat kind of person??if yes..i got nth to say anymore..as i say be4 , i dun think i need to explain much cos i had no guilty of anything..my consience is clear...

for once i know i'm deeply in love with u...blame me for being useless..cos i dun have the strength to cont tis r/s anymore..so i give up...i'm sorry...i know u can find someone tat can accept ur everything...i'll put this love deeply inside my heart and i'll recall the happy times we had in the past, and say "i never regret being with u"cos being with u ,i had so much happiness from u...thanks baby"

2008-05-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

He moved to a new town,
felt like he was lost,
he always wore a frown,
till he seen the angel across,

one day he met her,
it was like a sign,
she was so pretty just,
endless like time,

together they fell,
in deep love real fast,
vowed to love each other,
that they'd always last,

then it got stronger,
deeper than thought,
he'd love her forever,
felt life was to short,

then something went wrong,
and they spent less time,
the boy started to wonder,
is she even still mine,

till one day she called,
and heres what she said,
"id rather be alone,
then with u instead,

from that day on,
inside more he died,
he couldn't let go,
no matter how hard he tried,

two and a half years have past,
in life he feels he has no part,
twenty-one days later,
he died from a broken heart,

heres to all u lovers,
who don't picture your selfs apart,
make sure you cherish every moment,
right from the very start....

2008-05-07T00:55:00.001+08:00

Age of six
He loved her so
And everyday
He'd let her know

"I love you Grace"
He'd say each day
She'd just laugh
And run away

Till one day
She turned around
And sat with him
On the playground

"I'm sorry Chris
I don't love you
You'll find someone else
Who loves you too"

Highschool came
They met again
They laughed about
The things back then

They began to date
And fell in love
He got the girl
That he'd dreamed of

But when college came
Everything changed
They were far apart
With lives rearranged

"We'll be fine Grace"
But she had doubt
She turned and said
"It won't work out"

"I'm sorry Chris
I can't love you
You'll find someone else
Who loves you too"

In their twenties
They met again
They laughed about
The things back then

He took her hand
They began to dance
Remembering
Their old romance

Two years later
She became his wife
They'd be together
All of their life

They went on a drive
When it was no longer light
They drove down the roads
Of the starry night

The music came on
She started to sing
He whispered, "Grace
You're my everything"

But then suddenly
In one big flash
Headlights shone
As their car crashed

He saw her laying
Down on the ground
He felt his tears
Start rolling down

"Grace..." he cried
She took his hand
"I have to leave...
Please understand"

"I love you so much
It's always been true
But you'll find someone else
And you'll love again too"

"No," he cried
"It's always been you
I don't want someone else
I only want you"

And there on that street
Is where he cried
Hugging his love
As she slowly died

2008-05-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

Tears of blood fall from my broken heart
I never thought we'd be apart
When you held me, you said "Forever"
Now that you're gone, I know you meant "Never"
Saying you loved me with that look in your eyes
And that, too, was a cold-hearted lie
Your tender touch, a soft kiss
Two things about you I will miss
As I sit here thinking of you
My face is wet with tears past due
I should have cried long ago
But I just loved you so
I know they say love is blind
But I had only you on my mind
A hurt so deep, it cuts like a knife
But wounds heal, and I'll go on with my life

hahahaah

2008-04-14T20:05:00.002+08:00

i was thinking..when i sit alone and cry..who knows?? when im feeling hurt to the extend i wanna disappear in my life ..den who's there?? isnt im alone too??i choose to keep quiet and hack care abt everything..cos i jus wan a peaceful life...

im the bad person again?? haha..i feel so funny abt everything...i say be4 le...i dun mind being the bad person as long u're happy and pls be true to ur own heart!!! im contented today..cos i finally can blow out everything to the one i trusted...i feel so relieved!!

i feel sad not totally cos of her.. is u my trusted bro!!

thanks for saying me in ur blog... that makes me feel im so useless actually...but smth i reli realise le.. im totally right choosing this road...

since so many ppl like to view my blog.. i will let u all see.. wat my true words are...
once again .. i'm telling all of my friends...pls listen...

*i love my gf alot now although is jus 3 months plus, i believe in times pass we'll prove to everyone that we're in love with each other.....and the only one that stay at my heart now is SHEENA TAN!!!!

the end

2008-04-14T14:27:00.002+08:00

i though everything is so simple... i tot is ended.. but indeed it will never end..haiz...

i say it once and for all...my life is my life.. ur life is u to decide...im not controlling u nor holding u on...from today onwards,my life wont have u anymore...is enough is enough...i'm tired too...

i dun want any of our friends to stuck in btw us.. i say le.. everything is over... why cant jus treat everything is the past le... and start afresh everything anew...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hope this will be the last time im saying all tis...be it u all can accept it or not...all is the past!!!now is a new starting..a new year!!everything is different le...dunn look back anymore...look out for the future pls!!!!!!!

shinibiwozheyanghenxinde....

meiyouniderizhizhemeguo

2008-04-06T02:55:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. off day tml.. but got to wake up ealy to go pray pray.. haiz.. tired..
so stress at work today..so many things to do and handle...the working time will never ended de... kaoz..

went movie with dear and pat and chris today... haha.. so funny .. see pat and chris so close... they seem to be together?? haha.. i'll get the ans fromm her when i'm back to work den... haha..i'm happy for them too... :) i jus wanna see couples that are together to be xinfu and recieve happiness... that will be my wish ba...

today is a special day>?? haha... but after 12 le.. is another day passes so fast..
jus wondering why ppl are so different nowadays... feel so moody...so sian...so moodless suddenly now... sob sob... miss u real lots..

:__(

meiyouniderizhizhemeguo

sian

2008-04-05T19:01:00.002+08:00

haiz... got to do tying in office today dunno till wat time le... boring...

yawnz.. this coming thur actually going PLAY to club... but bird they all say st james power station got dunno wat les event ,so going there to club... very long no go st.james too le... hahha.. looking forward to dance with all my siao friends... hahah

....

2008-04-02T07:13:00.002+08:00

i think i only believe wat i see in my eyes...
i think u're more happier now...more xinfu...
i'm happer for u ya..

the feelings we had meant to keep in our heart??
haha... sounds funny...

u say heavenlove ended...
i'm glad to heart tat...
happy to see u move on...

times reli files...
going to one year le...
haha...though many things had change le...
i know myself...i had change too...only one thing never had change is myself...the real me ba...i hide the feeling of my friends wearing a mask in front of me esp those who are close to me...it hurts alot ba...alot of thing to say and explain...but im jus too tired to say le...i rather let it go and remain sliently...

my daddy vincent muz be hurting alot like how i feel too... i understand how he feel...but...i'll encourage him de... like how i encourage myself...trying not to think so much anymore... and live a simple simple life now...

i miss u real lots now...deeply in love with u from the code of 12!!!!

wat's life

2007-02-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

CNY is ending soon le... time files ya.... im glad tat u pass ur TP le... and alot of things happen jus like tat ba... is it a good or a bad year for me?? i dunno... but i had started to think alot now le... is it i had reli grown up le or ??

some things i choose to let go... i choose to betray it... but i jus cant betray myself anymore??
i love u ... but seems nothing is working out... is not ur fAUlt or my fault... mayb is time le ba.... from cny till now... everyday is unhappy for u... is it some things bothering u tat make u like tis?? or me myself... i dun wanna ask anymore.... i jus feel tat we like dun seem to care... click... concern abt each other anymore longer... is it cos long term r/s is like tat de?? i dunno... cos i dun haf a so long rs be4....

anyone... willing to help me??

or im the onli one tat can help myself??

im stress in terms of everything... family... work... r/s... friends.....

haiz... tis time i had break down and hide alone in a corner to cry... :(

bz...bz...bz...

2007-01-22T01:58:00.000+08:00

well.. my naggy ask me to blog... but i dunno wat to blog at all.. cos no mood le... cant go thailand at all le... cos no one can go... sob sob... :(

hmmm.. it gonna be a very very bz week for me after wed le... got event at wisma istean at ladies... feb at taka mens...weewee... if possible to hit my target... then i can get to buy my lappy le!! so muz work harder le... so my dear friends .. pls come support me at wisma kk... if any1 interested to get TIMBERLAND stuff on sales.... from 26jan to 1st feb... haha....

yawn.. tml still have to wake up dame early ... so i gtg slp le... nite...

naggy women.... i blog le... haha... :p

HmMmMmMMmMmmMmmMmMMmMMmmm...

2007-01-14T05:05:00.000+08:00

well.. im moving le...very soon ya.. dunno is gd or bad... dunno wat will happen to us but i bet u will have more time more pirvate time for urself le ba... jus dun wan or stress abt wat will happen in future le... jus wan a simple life now...reli simple... dun wan anymore things bad happen to me and my love ones...

been so lost nowadays... dunno why and wat im thinking too... am i waiting for something to happen?? or wat?? i reli dunno... so funny ya... totally no mood to work all day... anyway im clearing my p/h now to rest... to sit down and think sliently ba... is time to settle down le ba... not young le... haha...

and ............................

shall update when i found back myself....

bed time..........

2007-01-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

ya... now is 2007 le... happy new year to all.. i hope it will be a interesting month for me ba...and everyone esp my loves one...

anyway it going to be a very busy year for me le... last week at taka le... dunno should i be happy or cant bare too... now wan to leave like miserable... alot of mermoies here ya... haiz... hope it will be a good start for me to transfering out...
heard tat me n siti will be promotoed latest by may if nth happens to us... to my surprise im not excited abt it too.... haha....im stress... very stress now abt work... in my mind onli work work work now... OMG!!! im going nuts!!! scare tat i will offence my friend in work n working attitude.. n everything.. so worry... haiz...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!

tired!!

2006-11-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

yawn.. i took mc today and rest at hm ya... so tired!! no mood to go work today... mayb cos i hit my target le ba... haha... oPps...

well... things become so different suddenly... i dunno wat had happen oso... i oso dun wanna ask much... dun so kPo ba... as long my frends they are gd.. then im happy le ba.. actually im abit angry cos my buddy seem drift apart fm me le... i know wats e reason u all dun wan meet me ba... but is ok la... tats me.. my life... wat i know is... my true friends will accept me being with who or myself ya...

thanks eddy and sharline mei... thanks for being ther... i hope things will become better for u guys k?? grab ur true love!!! grab ur happiness even though is jus one mintue!!get wat i mean??

christmas...new year... coming le... but y i seem no mood abt it?? sian sian sian... :(

stress stress stressfor

2006-11-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

i had been very bz abt my work lately cos christmas coming le... so sales oso starting le... nad to work for 2weeks non-stop for dec... cos of my promotion... had to perform good in work in order to get my promotion next year... times files, i had work for timberland close to a year le.. tat's y got chance to advance my career i will never let it go...

cos of tat... i neglected my friends.... esp. my heart broken bro.. sorry bro... i reli busy abt my work... is not i dun wan to accompany u ... is i reli bz ya... i know i disappointed u guys... im sorry... mayb im not the pass kriz anymore?? i dunno too... i put my work first cos i think is time le ba... i dun wan to be a kid forever... i wanna grown up.. had a stable job... had a stable income... tat's wat im fighting for now...

other than other things... i dun wish to think too musch anymore... im tired le... tired of playing.. tired of being sad... tired of being of everything... if im continue to think so much... then i'll break down very soon le...

my dear baby: i reli dun wan to think so much le... abt the past or now... i jus wan to work hard for our future... give u the best i can too... i dun wan to see u suffer too.. if u reli wan go study then go ahead... i wont stop u de.. of cos i'll work hard to support u if u wan/.. u know i can de... yup... for the past... pls... jus forgo it ya... we look out for our future kk??tat's the way i wan... i think u wont wan to see us quarrel cos of stupid things too rite?? cos we had grown up le rite??? haha...

if u guys dun mind... same like the past years..i'll cook for u guys to eat during christmas eve ya?? steamboat?? alright??? let me know ya.. then i'll go prepare it for u all...

i may not had the time for u guys but my heart is always be wif u guys ya... take care

爱海滔滔

2006-11-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

试着去努力鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒
根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚还是找到了我排山倒海来袭

一定是我不够好所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道

只要你过得很好什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

总有一天你会看到
爱如海掀起惊天巨滔
我会以无坚不摧的力量
让你知道

tiring day

2006-11-02T22:13:00.001+08:00

hmmm....is a tiring day for me... attend my tp today again.. fail again... sian sia... haiz..

dunno wat to blog at all... and been very long since i blog le... i jus hope everything goes smooothly for me... and oso the one i love... the friends tat i had... been very down for now... pls be strong and carry on ur life happily...

jasper(bro):when is time to move on... then u had to do so... dun play around le... no stead then stay single at the moment and wait for the right one to come... same to u... concentrate on ur work now... work hard for it...we oso dun wish see u sad.. stay strong and carry on ur life happily... cos u always haf us ya... me and jove will always be ther for u de...

nat: i understand how u feel... dun sad le.. be strong ya... r/s not ur everything ... u can start ur carreer now le.... u're a good nice gal... one day u'll find ur mr. right and get marry and had a happy family de kk.. always rem, u still have us ... ivy... me... mel.. ur friends will be there for u to go though all the obstacles de kk??? take care ..

tiring day

2006-11-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

彩虹天堂

2006-10-31T00:46:00.000+08:00

我不知不覺
又徘徊在從前
秋風悄悄的呼喚
聽來盡是孤單
落葉的期盼
片片左右為難
心走寂寞攀
跟著飄進黑暗
我不聞不問
也許好過一點
被遺憾關在房間
掙扎隻是拖延
無望的空談
一聲聲的輕嘆
回憶扯不斷
怎麼擺脫糾纏
找不到方向
往彩虹天堂
有你說的愛
在用幸福觸摸憂傷
兩個人
相守直到白發蒼蒼
自由的飛翔在燦爛的星光
有你在我身旁

wat 's life...

2006-10-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

yo... sorry been very busy ya.. not even free to come online and blog lor... today at work was jus so dame pissed off the whole day...cos i got alot of stuff to do... when i reach my work place 1.30... i finish my stuff ard 7plus then can go for my break... argh... no one even bother to come help me lor... tat's fine.. after tat i went to take my break... then go back to finish my paper work ya.. i finish everything ard 945 lor.. cos last min got customer,.. argh.. sian half...so tired...yawnz...

hmmmm.. went to butter factory ytd n so quiet lor.. sianz.. so decide to go momo.... ya.. momo was very crowed and nice music oso.. so next time can go momo often le ya.. haha... opps..

well...jus now jasper came to town to find me ya.. we talk alot.. seem so pity for her... but bro.. life still have to goes on... we had to accept for who we are... and wat we wan... so... dun sad le ya.. u still have us...at least we wont leave u de ya... gals... have it or not...good or bad... is our life ya.. muz get used ya...no one will follow us till the end de... jus cherish the times tat we have with them... leave it as a mermory in our heart... is enough le... we cant ask for more too.. i believe one day.. we'll find one truly love be with us till the end de k? we work harder for our future ya... other things jus put aside first ya.. most impt is have to stay happy!!! no matter wat happens... the world is not ending... okie??
bless u bless us.. bless every0ne... heez..

洪俊扬 - 沙沙的谁

2006-09-10T03:32:00.000+08:00

斑驳的台阶
一双老旧的鞋
这无声却怀念的
气氛和对味
诗里的世界
被风几页
我的妥协
却被你撕毁

你给我的承诺像标本框里的蝶
冰冷的睡像永醒来的离别

满园的落叶任风吹
听出沙沙的谁
离开的声音急促的令人心碎
脸的无邪
却连笑都不给
诗句语带威胁
结局要怎么完美

满园的落叶任风吹
听出沙沙的谁
你的脚步声匆忙的那么零碎
我转过身背对
你远去的感觉
安静的为你
写下一首诗
再落泪

TANK-给我你的爱

2006-09-10T03:19:00.000+08:00

等待一点一滴你对我感到安心
感觉朋友关系有了新的默契
便利商店里谁也买不到
我们最想要的东西
只握在喜欢的人手上
给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱手拉着手不放开
就算宇宙爆炸海水都蒸发
只愿你的记忆里有我的拥抱
我的最大幸褔是发现了我爱你
灵魂有了意义用每一天珍惜
便利商店里谁也买不到
我们最想要的东西
只握在喜欢的人手上
给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱手拉着手不放开
就算宇宙爆炸海水都蒸发
只愿你的记忆里有我的拥抱
雨和天空也有相爱的可能
望着你的微笑情不自禁
给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱手拉着手不放开
就算地球毁灭来不及流泪
只愿你的记忆里有我的拥抱

周杰伦-搁浅

2006-09-10T03:15:00.000+08:00

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚
风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我
我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在
我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

wat's in me

2006-09-08T11:24:00.000+08:00

haiz... sian sian sian..

sometimes... i reli wish i can take a break.... put down everything... seeing couples breaking up one by one..dunno why im feel so worry...scary... mayb me myself scare oso ba... hmmm... scare my love one will leave me alone?? .... i dunno oso... is it gd or bad.. or me myself thinking too much le ba...so long so long... no one can make me feel so fan again...

u're the gal...which always make me feel so lost.. make me dunno wat to do... make me keep thinking of u...make me..................................thousands thousands of things..... tat i cant desricbe at all...i dunno im feeling gd or bad now... haha.. hmmm.. i may be a bad person... tat keep bully u... keep make u angry... keep neglecting u.... but im oso the one tat LOVE u the most....

life is full of happiness... so dun think so much le ba... i haven slp for a day le.. i wan..... to go n slp n had my sweet dreamz..................nite..............

unlucky me

2006-09-05T03:27:00.000+08:00

hmm.. very long never update le ya.. life still goes on.. still the same old me.. busy working..

but recently, being very careless working at my mummy work place n cut my hand... so scary lor.. the blood.. the skin... eeEEeEEeEe.... so had to sent to hospital to see doctor.... so suay.. so on mc now.. rotting at hm... resting... as my finger is very painful... sob sob... :(

take tis time to rest ba... i think i'll took abt 1 week mc ba.. haha.. wed had to go back n see doctor again... sian... tired... sure updated again when i free ba....

miss all my friend.. i very free to play mj now.. pls call me... haha.. :p

2006-08-08T03:35:00.000+08:00

well...nothing much to update too ya.. went to my best buddy chalet birthday celebration last sat... and so tired cos didnt sleep e whole nite lor.. is like the next day still haf to go work.. -_-
sunday is like so so tired...yawn...went hm and watch a vcd n fall asleep after tat..

today still haf to help my mummy at the stall lor.. sian half...@_@
so is like no off day at all..haiz..k la.. off to go and sleep... dame tired le..

and i like tis new uploaded song.. love story!!!

heading for sentosa

2006-08-02T04:36:00.000+08:00

weewee... im going to sentosa later le... finally i can get tan again le!! but before tat got to wake up early in the morning to go for meeting lor... sianz.....

tml then update ba... very tired le... nitezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

my dearest ka ki quit le

2006-08-02T04:18:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. my best ka ki had left taka le sia.. sadded.. now onli left me n alex le.. sianzzzzzzzzzzz....
some more next wk he's going in to reservice lor.. idiot!! im left all alone at sales floor... argh!!
dunno how to pass my time next wk le.. :(

went for celebration for ah ching at bugis de tian tian steamboat... haha.. we eat so much sia.. so funny lor.. 8 of us ther like were the most noisy at ther.. so paiseh sia.. haha... we eat ard 2hours plus lor.. power sia.. oPps.. we took some photos oso.. hmmm wake for me to upload then let u guys see how cute they are lor... haha... :)

miss the days sia.. we had alot of fun at taka sia... with ah ching..alex..zj..everyone ya.. now no one to pei me go eat ... go smoke.. go eat snake le.. sob sob.. :(

AH CHING!!!.. wo meng hui xiang ni de........

ARGH!!!

2006-07-26T05:08:00.000+08:00

i dun wanna blog le la!!! i blog so long ... n dunno wat's wrong with the network..!! and waste my time for blogging jus now!!! idiot!!!

wat a tired day

2006-07-26T04:40:00.000+08:00

yawnz...wake up early today cos had to attend my bike TP today... though is tiring.. but i got my baby to pei me to ssdc early in the moring sia.. so good!! she onli sleep like less than a hour lor.. muz be very tiring le... but muz pei her baby go take tp so sacrifice her sleeping time for me.. heez..

well..was late for tp ya.. reach abt 730am.. but it doesnt matter de.. cos got ppl late oso.. haha.. some even come at 8plus lor... if i know can then wont waste my money to take the expensive cab to ssdc le.. but suan le ya.. cos now i know le.. haha.. so tiring during the briefing.. have to wait till tester came then we can our test.. they reach abt 930am lor.. then we start ard 10am.. finally, everybody seem so nervous sia.. so do i... heez..:p

finally,i finish the test le.. and i fail my tp.. so sad!! haiz.. stupid mistake again..i think i sure go for more practice le be4 my next tp start at aug17 which is abt less than a month later.. :)

omg.. i think my baby wait for me very long le... opps!! she's so funny lor.. took all my pic n the tester pic when we moving off.. haha.. i think she jus to keep herself awake ba.. :) thanks baby, pei me all the way.. but next time i go myself le la.. se u so tired my heart will pain worz.. kk?? muackz..

we headed to amk for our breakfast cum lunch meal while waiting for jove ya.. he took mc today so had to see doctor..so we pei her go see doctor le then we went to bugis together ya.. reach ther abt 12plus le... so went shopping ard... saw alot of stuff to buy sia.. but tis month muz save up le.. so cant spent much.. so bro bro.. next month we got our pay then go ther shop shop our stuff again kkk? heez.. :)

hmmm.. abt 4plus, baby had to go work le... so i send her to work n i went hm after tat.. reach hm abt 6 plus.. so tired le!! so went to sleep ya.. wake up ard 9 plus to watch tv ... and after finisg watching tv i'm preparing to fetch my baby off work which is 2am sia... reach her work place ard 12.30 lor.. the bus so fast sia.. so while waiting for baby to end work, i play my hp game lor.. feel so cold ther sia.. so windy.. :(

finally 2am le!! baby came down to look for me first...haha.. see her sleepy face so cute.. haha.. so we took a cab back when her friend came down ya.. :)

k la.. got to go sleep le... my baby is so tired n sleeping beside me le... can heard her snoring sia... tat means she reli very tired le.. haha... is time to orh orh le...

wish me good luck for my next TP kk...

the heaven in love

2006-07-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

i beg im fated to stay at my heaven ba...

no matter wat happens.. heavenlove come n go... and always ended up back to the devil..

everthing is solve now?? i guess so ba.. i hope everything can goes smoothly for all of us...

i dun wish to see anyone cries anymore...dun wish to see anyone unhappy...

i jus wan everyone to be xin fu include myself...blessed with lots of love around us..

i believe one day everybody will accept us de... n zhu fu wo meng de...

is u tat bring my life back again...pls dun leave me..stay with me whenever i need u..stay by my side when im breaking down..lend me ur shoulder to lean on when im tired..wipe my tears for me when i feeling like crying...no matter wat happen, i jus wan u to be beside be to be my guardian angel...never ever step out of my life... i'll give u all i haf.. proivde u with happiness... protect u with cARE all my life.. no one else can come close to us... cos simply i love u

sorry

2006-07-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.. recently no mood n oso no time to blog at all..

so jus put all my fav. songs up... all so meaningful...heez

things come and go.. same goes to my realtionship...

im sorry i had hurt u.. i had hurt a simple ... guai gal.. a gal tat trust me so much believe me tat i'll give happiness to her... but in the end i hurt her... n bring her miserable life now... she quited her job too in order not to face me anymore... mayb tis will cure her n make her feel beta ba.. wat i can say is im jus a jerk ba.. in my heart, i did feel bad n gulity... but i know i cant help in any ways le.. wat happen had happen.. i jus hope u can find ur MR.RIGHT n truly give u a family n happiness.. xin fu... get marry with the guy u love at 24.. :) i truly wishing u all the best...

李玖哲 - 弹错

2006-07-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

轻轻敲着黑键和白键
又把歉意从头到尾弹了几遍
却止不住你溃堤眼泪 oh
试着了解试着解释和改变
试着扭转这场爱情失败局面
却挽不回你邂逅时的笑颜
oh my baby
no matter what i say to u 我有多么后悔
no matter what i do for u 逃不开错和对
已弹错了曲都来不及挽回
oh my baby
no matter what i say to u 我有多么后悔
no matter what i do for u 逃不开错和对
已伤害了你都来不及挽回
oh my baby
话
这乐章里飞舞的一切
就算曾经演奏再完美的音阶
一丁点错就轻易毁灭 oh
被自己划上休止符的永远
后悔却无法再重来过的昨天
沉默成为你和我唯一语言
oh my baby
no matter what i say to u 我有多么后悔
no matter what i do for u 逃不开错和对
已弹错了曲都来不及挽回
oh my baby
no matter what i say to u 我有多么后悔
no matter what i do for u 逃不开错和对
已伤害了你都来不及挽回
oh my baby
为你弹的音符是想念
还是说不出的抱歉
为何都接触不到你耳边
为你弹的幸福是祝福
还是给不完的弥补怎样你才听得见
no matter what i say to u 我有多么后悔
no matter what i do for u 逃不开错和对
已弹错了曲都来不及挽回
oh my baby
no matter what i say to u 我有多么后悔
no matter what i do for u 逃不开错和对
已伤害了你都来不及挽回
oh my baby

李玖哲 - 解脱

2006-07-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

爱永远都是难题
失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜
伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
让你哭泣对不起为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系愈是相处不容易
伤害了你我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
走到感情关键时候却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧
如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着
爱着你唯一的解脱

曹格 - 数到五答应我

2006-07-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

第一次看着你就为你心动
聪明的我怎能让你走
第二次看见你我竟然失控
是我的错请你原谅我
第三次看见你想要告诉你
我真的爱你是真的爱你
第四次看着你我有些要求
请你能够安安静静的聆听
一.让我保护你
二.让我照顾你
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
四.接受这命运
五.永远不分离
说你愿意
那最后一个一定要说你愿意
want be your lover want be your man
我只希望给你多一点
我只要你开心多一点
can you be my lover don"t wanna be your friend
给你幸福每一天
给你幸福到永远

因为我want be your lover want be your man
说你害怕因为受过伤
不需要害怕因为我不是他

曹格 - 不浪漫的家伙

2006-07-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是我爱你你也爱我
我担心一杯红酒
把我的真心透露
或许你早就该懂
冰淇淋在喉咙
能多冷静几秒钟
气氛在浪漫都不够
烛光晚餐像一场美梦
想这样望着你到永久
一束玫瑰交到你的手中
这一天这一刻这一切
你属于我
多想要留住这一秒钟
你每天晚餐都陪我
美味比不过你温柔
从此以后我爱你你爱我
多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是我爱你你也爱我
我不是个浪漫的家伙
却甘心为你这样做
想要什么都跟我说
从此以后我爱你你爱我
我是不是有一点别扭
从不曾这样说出口
太多的愿望在心中
重要的是我爱你你也爱着我...

曹格 - 沉默玩具

2006-07-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

变成了一个影
隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸
我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限情
模糊我自己
不愿深深把爱情
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决拥抱
我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
寂寞点点不休息
而让甜蜜却也忘记
幸福不再美丽
可是我会在意
这种对你的深情
我不会怪自己
不愿意深深的情意
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决了拥抱
我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
喔~~爱~~
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
喔~~爱~~
这么爱你的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
说在而情意

李玖哲 - 洗牌

2006-07-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

回忆当初我们的好与坏
才发现其实快乐大于悲哀
从过去一路走来我却学不会慷慨
去面对这场得来不易的爱
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱so beautiful
oh~~
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 my baby
我怎么能释怀最后的未来
最后一手牌还紧握着悲哀
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这部是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 so beautiful

2006-06-21T01:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i had been so busy cos of my timberland promotion starts ytd le.. oh my god is dame busy with those 800plus shoe with no one help me.. it gonna be a very very tired 3weeks for me le..no off day at all tis week n need to work almost all full shift sia.. hmm..how long i can tahan?? i dunno.. no chioce.. i got to earn lots of money to buy my bike le...

i pass my lesson 8 le.. now waiting for tp le.. yeah.. hmmm...

hmmm.. my brithday coming le sia.. but yet i still dunno celebrat wat.. aiyo.. sian sia.. like no mood to celebrate like tat.. hmmm.. lets see how ba..

thanks.. is u tat help me get over so many things.. is u being ther to let me feel im not tired at all.. i know alot of things we had to go through now.. but bare with it ba.. we had no chioce at all... i believe if our love is true.. we'll get wat we wan one fine day de.. thanks for accompany me all along.. thanks for loving me too..

ps:i wan u to be happy.. be a good gal.. become a woderful woman one day..

hmmm.. as for me.. if everyone around me is happy n get all love from their love one happily.. i'll be happy le.. no matter how bad i can become too.. i jus dun wan to see any of my loves one get hurt...

i miss u

2006-06-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

haiz.. im going to mad anytime ba.. anyone can tell me wat to do??

im totally stress now..

sob sob.. :(

2006-05-30T03:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm... long time no blog le sia... been very bz with work ya..

finally i cut my hair short again... haha.. wan to keep long oso so difficult lor.. haiz... sian sia.. nowadays keep bz with work...work...work.. wan to go play oso no time.. wanna save lots lots money for my up coming bike oso.... heez..

to all my buddies.. ling.. sun zi... bros.. sorry i reli too bz le... not even time to update u ppl... no time to msg u guys too.. but of cos our hearts still stay as one kk.. i'll look up for u guys one day de.. miss u all lots lots...

JJ-只對你說

2006-04-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

It's Been So Long Baby
So Many Hours So Many Days
我心裡的這句話還是想對你說
Sa Lang Hae Yo

站在寂寞的舞台上
燈光下拖著自己的影子
音樂重覆我們共同的憂傷

不是每一次的演唱
就可以淡忘明天沒有你
In My Heart We'll Never Be Apart

殘留手上的香味提醒我
在數位相機裡留下的承諾
每一封簡訊傳出來的思念都對你說

Sa Lang Hae Yo means I Love You
代表著我離不開你
每分每秒每一個聲音
只有你撒嬌會讓我微笑

Sa Lang Hae Yo 只對你說
I Will Love You And Forevermore
我答應 Baby You Will See
每一個我都屬於你

殘留手上的香味提醒我
在數位相機裡留下的承諾
每一封簡訊傳出來的思念都對你說

Sa Lang Hae Yo means I Love You
代表著我離不開你
每分每秒每一個聲音
只有你撒嬌會讓我微笑

Sa Lang Hae Yo 只對你說
I Will Love You And Forevermore
我答應 Baby You Will See
每一個我都屬於你

Sa Lang Hae Yo means I Love You
代表著我離不開你
每分每秒每一個聲音
只有你撒嬌會讓我微笑

Sa Lang Hae Yo means I Love You
代表著我離不開你
每分每秒每一個聲音
只有你撒嬌會讓我微笑

Sa Lang Hae Yo 只對你說
I Will Love You And Forevermore
我答應 Baby You Will See
每一個我都屬於你

Baby I Will Love You Because 我都屬於你

TIRED...TIRED...TIRED...

2006-04-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. so tired of working... keep on working full shift sia... hmm.. nowadays dunno wat im doing.. seem so moodness n sian... even my god-mum ask me wat happen... why the joker kriz gone le... why no more joke le.. and yet become more sian n moodness.. i told her i dunno too.. i dun even know who am i now too le... totally blank at all..

jus now while walking back with my friend, i accidently bit towards a car sia... my god.. luckily my frend hold me back n the car stops lor.. in the end, onli hit the side of the car onli.. or not i think i now ended up in hospital le ar... hahaha... wat a joke of the day..!!!

i dun even dare to fall in love again le... but dunno why my heart keep asking me dun give up.. keep on trying.. mayb i reli love her,.. i dun wanna get hurt anymore.. but now, i dun wanna bother le.. jus do wat i like ... dun dare to msg u much cos scare u say i fan.. but i reli miss u alot.. whenever working, im jus hoping the time pass faster jus i can see u early..haiz.. love jus hurts.. but i'll strongly to face it once again..............

a brand new me

2006-04-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

time passes fast.. i had been working for so long.. yet not free to come online to update my life.. haha... anyway, its hard to been through now.. cos everything is different now ba.. the one i rely on may not be ther anymore.. the one i need does not need me anymore.. can see her so happy still even without me.. my calls.. my msg... mayb im still a LOSER.... nvm ya... i got to be strong ya.. to go on with my life..

nelgected someone tat lke me so much.. sorry i jus dun wanna hurt u or treat u like a replacement..being together is abt 2 ppl.. not onli one.. tat why till now i didnt even do anything.. so sorry.. hope u can find someone beta than me ba..

CNY

2006-02-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

long long time never blog le... had been very bz ba... or rather say i dun even had the mood to blog at all..

so fast... today is the last day of cny le... alot alot of things had happen surrounded around me... like r/s... i had a few friends break up with their stead le... look like not a very good year for couples ya... feeling very numb for myself too...

V.day is coming le... jus 2 more days... had alot of things in mind but dunno wat i should do for you... i scare wat i do for you oso no use... scare you not happy too... hope everythings will be fine ba... even is a bad day for you but it will goanna be a unforgettable night for you... cos is ur beloved baby cos of you create the romantic night for you... i wont let u be unhappy anymore... i wont wan to see ur sadness appear in ur face... pls bring urself back and i can hold ur hands to walk with u all the way no matter how downs or ups again...

u're always the most special in my eyes... now and forever...

my life seem very unhappy cos i had lose you... i trying very hard to find u back... but u refused to come back even till now... i reli hope i can see u again... even to give up my happiness to exchange you back.. i'm willing too...

i'm waiting... waiting...for you...

CHRISTMAS EVE...DAY!!

2005-12-28T00:57:00.000+08:00

hmm... so fast christmas had passed le... heez.. had a gathering ya... of cos i had my baby on christmas day ya... went to her hse to had dinner cum lunch ya... her mummy cook curry!!! my fav... haha.. so nice... in the end we finish all sia... with empty pot left... haha.... had a wondeful day ya.. at night still having champane time with her..... haha.. so nice... so sweet.. oPps...

wher is my present??????? ahem... wher is my food???? ahem.. u know who u 're....

anyway i hope my christmas wish will come true ya..

christmas coming!!!

2005-12-22T15:35:00.000+08:00

wat a good year for me ... idiot... so many up n downs... oh my got ar... haiz... dame disappointed... in someone tat i trust so much... again n again.. wat should i do?? i forgave her again... cos i jus cant be nasty to her... i dunno why too... sorry i jus a idiot.. u all can call me anything u all like... or can scold me too... but i myself knows wat im doing... so dun worry abt me...

christmas coming le... but all seem so bz... a meal fm her?? i dun think so ba... but is okie.. i know all tis is her last min de cos of smth... but nvm ya.. im glad enough le ba.. i wont ask for much de.. tis year like no christmas present le ar... ahem...
this sat mayb gather all my frends to party at my hse ba.. hope all will be free to meet me... heez...

last week till now i like 24hr playing mahjong leh... onli sleep ard 4 hrs onli then start again... i crazy le ar.. haha... tue still went back hm with baby to play mahjong with jie they all too... so i cant play cos she's playing n she won 40 plus ar... so power... haha.. got my feng fan... haha.... then ytd,wed went office with baby..whole family to work ya... oh my god , 2 container sia... haha... dame tired lor... my whole body so pain pain... need some1 to massage le... hahah... ahem.. *hinting*..

today i so free online here... cos they at lab doing editing... finally finish filming le... so my jie nelly can go rest n no need to ma fan her le... heez.. so fast today onli spent 2 hrs plus to finish the last part ya... heez...
on e way to lab my dear baby fall down cos of my tootz jie step on her ba... poor thing... baby i sayang u kk.... heez..all laghing at her lor... so bad thing... let me hold ur hand walk with me together la... crusmy...

i sure go pei them do editing le... heez.. i bored to online le... haha,,, :)

2005-12-13T02:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i didnt went to my lesson 7 today worz... heez... cos of playing manjony... haiz.. had a big quarrel with baby again... if i knew tis will happen i rather go for my lesson le... cos i jus dun wish to quarrel.. but now alright le ba... hmmm..

i know im useless.... no brains... i had nothing.. i dunno why u like too... im jus like a useless bum now.. jobless... no life.. jus nothing... been slacking n create lots of quarrel nowadays with you.. but see u ok le im happy too... cos u dun seem to be affected by me ba... okok.. lets not talk abt tis le or not later quarrel again...

i reli had a very long very long holiday le... hmm.. reli hapi spenting the times with you.. oPps... i wont forget de.... especially.....aHem...ahem..... haha..... i sure stop here.. me talking rubbish le.... heez... heez... heez....

who am i

2005-12-01T13:55:00.000+08:00

i pass my lesson 6 today le... finally.. left with two lesson to go... heez.. hope everything will goes smoothly.. later going for my advance theory with baby.. hope will pass too.. heez..

i had been very useless nowadays... feeling dame down... dame broke... dun feel like i'm myself anymore... some times i reli feel tat am i reli a fool?? i like acting as if i dunno anything... but indeed i knows.. all is enough le... i wont wan to carry on like tis anymore... going to work soon le... dun worry abt me... sorry tat i let u guys worry abt me... but i'll be fine... my hp is cut off le... when i get my new no i'll update u guys kk...

my story will go on for u guys.... but not now... =)

wish me good luck ba... for everything tat im going to do... god pls pray for me...

as i say... "believe in urself... miracle will happens"

jay- 珊瑚海

2005-11-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

男: 海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈

女: 你用唇语说你要离开
男:心不在

男女: 那难过无声慢了下来
男女: 汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海

男: 转身离开分手说不出来
女: 你有话说不出来

男女: 海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女: 我们的爱差异一直存在
女: 回不来

男: 风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女: 等待竟累积成伤害

男女: 转身离开分手说不出来
男女: 蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白

男: 当初彼此不够成熟坦白
女: 你有我的不够成熟坦白
女: 不应该

男女: 热情不再笑容勉强不来
男女: 爱深埋珊瑚海

男: 毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快
你说你无法释怀

女: 贝壳里隐藏什么期待
男: 等花儿开

男女: 我们也已经无心再猜

女男: 脸上海风咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来

男: 转身离开分手说不出来
女: 你有话说不出来

男女: 海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女: 我们的爱差异一直存在
女: 回不来
男: 风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女: 等待竟累积成伤害

男女: 转身离开分手说不出来
男女: 蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白

男: 当初彼此不够成熟坦白
女: 你有我的不够成熟坦白
女: 不应该
男: 热情不在笑容勉强不来
女: 你的笑容勉强不来

男女: 爱深埋男: 海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈

女: 你用唇语说你要离开
男:心不在

男女: 那难过无声慢了下来
男女: 汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海

男: 转身离开分手说不出来
女: 你有话说不出来

男女: 海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女: 我们的爱差异一直存在
女: 回不来

男: 风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女: 等待竟累积成伤害

男女: 转身离开分手说不出来
男女: 蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白

男: 当初彼此不够成熟坦白
女: 你有我的不够成熟坦白
女: 不应该

男女: 热情不再笑容勉强不来
男女: 爱深埋珊瑚海

男: 毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快
你说你无法释怀

女: 贝壳里隐藏什么期待
男: 等花儿开

男女: 我们也已经无心再猜

女男: 脸上海风咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来

男: 转身离开分手说不出来
女: 你有话说不出来

男女: 海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女: 我们的爱差异一直存在
女: 回不来
男: 风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女: 等待竟累积成伤害

男女: 转身离开分手说不出来
男女: 蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白

男: 当初彼此不够成熟坦白
女: 你有我的不够成熟坦白
女: 不应该
男: 热情不在笑容勉强不来
女: 你的笑容勉强不来

男女: 爱深埋珊瑚海

何晶晶 - 重生

2005-11-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

似夢片段正在發生　心跳感覺愈難自禁
一笑一語多迷人吸引
身邊有你伴著行　甜蜜是溫暖聲音
猶令我在這刻如重生

似夢似幻卻又最真　心裡感應愈來愈近
緊閉雙眼跟情人一吻
真心意最是動人　無言地交託一生
回謝你是勇敢和誠懇

無限宇宙遠大無涯　在這虛渺花花世界
也許真正的愛才是偉大
重拾美妙放浪情懷　是你使我開展眼界
看清方向找到明日那路牌

漆黑天空　浮現閃閃星火
愈是漆黑星愈璀璨　明亮發光
漆黑之中　燃著浪漫戀火
但願相依一直相愛　唯獨你是最愛

this song is very nice... is jus a kind of feelings tat this song give me...a very special feel...but i dunno wat is it...anyone can give me this feeling??still finding... heez.. hmmmm....

2005-10-31T16:31:00.000+08:00

long time no blog again sia... haha... eh... can anyone tell me wat to do??im finding answer everywher... but i still cant find my answer... actually going out today to play manjong de... but last min cancel le.... so no one to went out with so i went out alone... i long time never go ice skate le... so going ice skating later alone ... to cool myself down?? hmm... i think so ba... no one knows how i feel or rather bother abt it... the gal tat i love dun love me anymore... but the gal tat i dun love ... she love me.... sigh... i reli dunno wat to do le... can anyone find me another her for me?? i dunno how long i can take it tis time le... she feel more n more for him... but me.... all my effort had gone into the sea le... i reli dunno wat else i can do le... i know wat's she thinking all along... she always hope tat beside her de is not me but him... but im always beside him... is it like tat she feel bored of me le ma?? i dunno... anyway, the world is not gone yet... i'll stay strong ya... no matter wat happens... pls let me know... cos i jus wan u to be happy... lastly im going to cool down n relax myself today le... no one will be disturing me ya.... haha...

baby... enjoy urself today ba... i know u miz him lots... i wont call or msg to disturb u ya... :)

2005-10-25T14:35:00.000+08:00

ytd went out with daniel... cos is his birthday worz.. even very little ppl went celebrate foe him but at least got me... charmaine... zijian ...william.. we went to boat quake ther to have our dinner... is a high class restraunt lor... and all of us wear till so lok ko.... tat's why when we reach ther we'll so paiseh... cos zijian was wearing shorts... baby was wearing 3/4 shorts... oPpS... we laugh until dunno wat sia... the food ther was dame not suit us lor.. so werid de.. and so ex lor... onli the starters is nice.. kaoz.. i think the bill cost 100++++ lor.. hmmm... after tat we head to ms lor... play blowing... play pools... then went hm le... later going to meet all my buddies again le ya!! haha... play manjong... cook for them to eat... waiting for baby to come back hm ya... hmmmm.... sure go le... update some other time ba...

lastly, i fail my rtt.... sadded!! :(

what's love all abt??

2005-10-21T12:09:00.000+08:00

love is jus hurtful.... couples always had quarrrels... had the happiness together.... the unforgettable meomeries tat had spent together...

but for me now.. i jus wanna be alone ba.. even no one shower me wif love... wif care... wif concern... wif hugs...i reli dun wanna step into any r/s anymore le... one is enough le... i know is kind of stupid for me to do tat... but other than tat i reli dunno wat i should do le... im jus following wat my hearts say... i had been be4 alot of r/s.. but tis time i think it wont be cure so easily ba... how long i'll take to stand up? i dunno too.. no one believes me.. no one trust me tat i wont be alone for long... let's see ba... after my love one reli being wif her long wanted prince of cos not me... then i think is time for me to change all my life style le ba... i wan earn lots lots of money.. i wan to buy my fav. bike... my sports car.. my own home[cond.]... my own shop... lastly, my operation...i hope im not late yet to start at my age... be4 i turn into 35 i wan get all my things... by tat time i jus wan to be a freedom person le... so i can do anything tat i wan.. get wat i wan too.. then tat time i beg alot of gals will come find me le ba... hahahahahaha.. :)

i know is a bit the weird... i know is abit the immpossible..but like i always say : "believe in urself... miracle will happens to you... " i like tis words.. ppl tat close to me will know i always like to say tat... even no miracle tat i expect had happen yet... but mayb one day it will....

2005-10-21T11:47:00.000+08:00

i fail my FTT ya... but is okie.. i'll retake it but very long worz... dec then got slot for it... sob sob... hmmm... the test is easy but tricky... mayb i make alot of careless mistakes ba.. :P i'll be careful next time de... heez..

hmmm... sometimes i was thinking... if am i reli the one u need?? am i the one u wan me to be wif u?? to pei u?? im feeling jealous ... very jealous... jealous of why u're not telling me the truth... why wanna hide everything behind me?? is it good for me?? i can feel the happiness tat u had now... im hapi to see u smile... but not moodless... i had try all my ways to make u hapi le... but in the end always ended up quarrel??bored?? haha... i dunno why too...

hapi for not hearing tat u complain going out with him is bored le... mayb u had already fall in le... even is bored but wif him u feel hapi... i know wat's u're thinking... u hope he can pei u more often... n not once in a week?? is time for me to go work too le ba... then like tat u can haf more time for him le ba... he's ur love one... im not going to be selfish... nor wei da?? jus wanna see u hapi... being with him u'll feel more comfortable ba.. :)

hmmm... if im leaving ... anyone will be sad ma?? haha... anyway is childish la.. i got alot of things wanna do le... if i reli gone disappear.. pls dun come find me.. once i settle down... i'll find u... anyway my blog's song is nice rite?? haha... i like it alot... is a sad song... but is nice... heez..

2005-10-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. tml having final theory test for car le worz.. but i dun understand it at all... dunno wat all abt.. and i dunno who to ask... sob sob... :( i think tml go sure fail de ba... jus go for the sake of going... no mood to take too...

mood swing fast.. suddenly sad.. suddenly happy.. suddenly down... all kinds of feelings come ard me nowadays... today my hp was off the whole day till i reach hm... but surprising no one find me at all... so quiet... frend use to call me but no more.. mummy use to call me too but i make her angry?? and... someone tat i miss didnt call me too or msg me.. im not being alone but why still im feel so bored!!!

for test everything goes very smoothly for me at the moment... but not abt my love life ba... i dare not to try anything le ba... or i still thinking of having her?? or is it not the time yet to start a new r/s... i think so ba... i dun wanna mind so much le...

WO ZHEN DE ZHEN DE REN MING LE... i got to accpet it.. im not the one tat come into ur mind already... i think i had play enough le... i feel tat staying here wif u.. i make u even more sad... even more ma fan.... even more stress.. nothing is good... cos i know im still a kid.. im never grown up.. im childish.. tat me!! sorry

*im sorry for being not truthful to u.. sorry for not telling u everything.. all is just a lie... other than sorry i dunno wat else i can say le... but all i know is i dun wish to hurt u but indeed i did.. so sorrry... hope u can find someone beta than me... *

2005-10-17T13:41:00.000+08:00

long long time never come post le sia...hmm.. very moodless to blog nowdays ya... the past few days alot of things happen ba.. i onli remember i had a world war again... dunno is it being with her onli got quarrel is it?? sometimes i reli sick of quarreling le... but i jus cant control my temper... sigh.. i cant see a min we wont quarrel de.. wat's happening sia... i dunno too.. mayb everything is changing.. even ourself...

tis month going to end le ya.. tat means im going to start work?? haha.. mayb i'll go to work cos of some reason tat hush me to go work... but i dunno yet... dunno wat to tell my uncle tat i dun wanna start my job so early cos i haven get my bike lesson.. and oso... i dun wan to leave my baby alone ba... i dunno if she need me cos of rely on me or wat... but i did promise her i'll be ther for her de.. heez..

wat's happening now, i know... wat're thinking i dun wish to know anymore... since im not the one tat u can talk to anymore... then keep to ur own heart ba.. i wont ask u anything anymore le.. i'll try to make u happy cos i onli want to see u smile... i dun wanna see u cry le... sorry... i know i make u crazy at times... but i dun mean it worz.. so sorry.. beside u, i had no one else le... cos everyone seem to be changing... i'm so worry... worry tat im being left alone at a corner one day... i dun like being alone.. u understand?? anyone knew it?? nvm... i dunno wat im doing now... i sure stop here ba..

preparing to go movie later with baby.. the skeleton key.. nice nice.. scary scary... heez...

2005-10-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

wat should i do? wat should i do? haiz.. y always quarrel? when all tis will stop....!!!! wat i do seem to be wrong!! i try all my ways to make her happy.. but in the end i still fail!! y am i so useless then?? i try very hard not to get jealous or angry or sad in front of u le... and even u go meet him i jus say ok... wat's tis?? wanted to bring u go eat fish n co today n go watch movie if the new show is out... but then... i reli speechless.. wat's wrong being a good person?? muz i be nasty then ppl will like me izzit?? gone... totally lost... and i dun even know wat to say anymore!!

2005-10-10T14:12:00.000+08:00

hmmm... had a glad time after baby's birthday... sorry tat i'm drunk on ur birthday itself... cant control.. n long time never drink le ba... heez... anyway hope ur dream come true ya... stay cute & lovly always... :)

hmmm... after so many things tat i had did for u... dun know if u're happy over it.. but wat i can do for u i had did le.. u happy or not i reli dunno... cos i feel tat u dun seem to be happy over wat i had done for u ba... anyway, nvm ba.. finally ur birthday is over le.. i can settle down too le ba.. mayb all along wat i had did still cant help anything btw us... he still the one in ur mind... the one u wanted to be wif till the end.. [wo ka si xin le ma??] i sure not think so much then... left less than a month onli.... i goanna start work le... i'll not disturb u always le n busy with my work ba... i dun wanna think so much too le... tired!!

sometimes i'm thinking why muz i do so much when i know ther's no more chance?? why cant i jus accept the fact?? when will i grown up?? i dunno too.. sure leave all tis to fate ba.. let fate decide for us kk... i'm happy when u're ther le.. even ur mind thinking is not me.. is ok... as long as i can be wif my love one... is enough le... i wont ask for more too le... cos my heart for u is numb le..

heavenlove is death n rest in peace in my heart... whenever u need me i'll be ther too...if u need someone to lead on.. i'll lent u my shoulder too...nothing can change my love for you...i wont escape from u too..i'll carry on with my life and accept other's love for me... i'll not bother abt it anymore.. whenever i think of u, i'll jus smile to feel the happiness ard me...

pray hard for me everything will goes smoothly... nothing goes wrong.. :)

2005-10-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm... come here for a fast update ya.... i'm at daniel hse ya... hmmm waiting for him to bath to get prepared to go out with us.... heez..

hmm.. think baby now is having her long waiting outing now... wondering wat's she doing now... i bet she's too happy or bz jus to call me le ba... haiz... happy for her but my is heart seem so werid?? trying very hard not to think so much.. cos i had my beloved frends around me!! hmm... i sure enjoy myself today n get drunk!! haha... oPPs...

bro bro... the bet is still going on ar.... see who's the one going to drink up one big cup later.... heez.. :)

im missing u alot... hope everything will be fine today... gonna be a unforgetable
nite today for me ba...or is the last nite?? haha...

gtg le ba... sure update again when i'm free...

2005-10-06T14:25:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.... had been posting my own feelings .. but not wat's happening btw me ar.... heez.. hmmm... i pass my ttt le!!! so happy.. finally sia.. n now waiting for my rtt ya... tyd is weijie bday ya.. went eat with them n baby at saka... he reli can eat sia... small size but eat alot alot... heez..
after tat went back to baby hse to watch tv n slack ya... so tired!! dunno y.. mayb cos not sleeping enough ba... heez.. and now i wake up in the early morning to go back hm ya... her daddy send me hm first then send her to school... yawn.. reach hm le but cant sleep... sob sob... missing her expression when sleeping... haha.. oPps.. lastly, cos i cant get to sleep so i come online n going off to meet zj for lunch le... after all going to fetch my beloved baby... mayb go catch a movie before going to meet her jie ba... hmm.. life seem so bz ar... but bores ya... dunno wat to do oso... sianz,.. but later can see my baby le.. i wont feel bored le.. hope she wont feel bored too... me going to tease her later le.. to cheer her up!! yeahz!!

baby: working is nothing to me at the moment... jus one word from you... i'll do wat u wan me to do... jus for you.. remember wat i say?? [no matter you're sad or happy... i wanna be by ur side]
this is my promise... heez.. :) becos i love u so i do it for you....

2005-10-06T14:09:00.000+08:00

i regret for not telling u the truth...
i dun wanna miss the chance of being with you...
pls tell me the truth whenever u're down...
complain to me if u're not happy...
i feel happiness if i can share ur sorrows n pain...
i asked u why is ther a ending for us...
but i knew tat can be with u every moment, i'm happy le...
being together almost coming 3 years le...
wat'll be the outcome like??
i dunno too, i dun wish to think...
all i know is, can be with u i'm glad le...
i know i'm impt to u...
u're oso impt to me too in my heart...always!!

2005-10-06T13:55:00.000+08:00

if ther's day, is my last time to see the blue sky...
i'll put my words deeply in my heart...
waiting for the rain...
i hope anytime i can be ur shadow for u to lead on...

2005-10-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

+ all this precious moments
++ with you by my side
+ + must be a gift from heaven
+ + thats holding me all night
+ + i dont know how i found you
++ im thankful that i have
+ + now that i have a love so true
++ to hold to keep to share
++ in my heart i can no longer hold inside
+ + all of the love i used to hide
++ i'll always be with you until the very end
+ + in this world there is no place i'd rather be
+ + you are my life my soul my ger
++ and through it all
++ i know that u've come to see that
++ you're the one till the end
+ + all my friend around me
+ + say you'd be gone too soon
+ + baby im gonna make them see
++ we've found our way back home
+ + in my heart i can no longer hold inside
+ + all of the love i used to hide
++ i'll always be with u until the veri end
+ + in tis world there is no place i'd rather be
+ + you are my life my soul my girl
++ and through it all
+ + i noe tat you've come to see that
+ + you're the one till the end
++ we'll always be till the end +

2005-10-06T11:31:00.000+08:00

this is cute.... heez... i'll always put tis meomeries in my heart... in my dream.. u'll always appear..
i hope tis can last so long so long and never end... but i knew it'll never happen... some things will never go our own way... i had been missing u even though we meeting everyday... dunno why too.. after so much things had happen... i realise alot of things tat i dun wish to know too... alot of things i dun wish to know i had knew... i still miss u as much.. i still love u as much... y am i not hating u?? i jus cant bring myself for doing tat... cos u jus mean so much to me ba... no matter wat u do... i jus accept it... is this called love?? i'm wondering....

2005-10-05T12:09:00.000+08:00

i jus wan to let u know... without u my love for u still will be the same as now... without u nothing for me is changing.. i decide wat to do le ya... i wont be miserable anymore after tis week le ba... i wan to be the old me... the strong kriz... yup... i mayb down nowadays... but i'll recover after a few days... sorry tat i make u miserable make u cry... i'm so sorry... i love you

2005-10-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

There's a place for us my Angel,with our Lord up above,
A place where tears can never fall and hearts are filled with love.
The sun does shine the moon's aglow, the darkness fades away,
There is a lovely nursery where you can play each day.
The Angels sing you lullabies as you drift off to sleep,
They chase the nightmares far away so you need never weep.
The fluffy clouds are pillows, to lay your weary head,
You're all wrapped up in Angel's wings asleep in Heaven's bed.
How could I wish you back down here with all the strife and pain?
I know that you are happy there and I'll see you again.
So play on precious Angel, I know you've many friends,
But please just know I love you so and will 'til my life ends.

2005-10-04T14:45:00.000+08:00

Although you are with someone else,
I want to have my say
Without invading your domain
Or scaring you away.
I respect the choice you made
And all that you decide,
But I would just like you to knowI want you by my side.
As a lake deep in a wood
Awaits a cool, fresh breeze,I will wait, a patient eye,
While you do as you please.

2005-10-04T14:37:00.000+08:00

After you leave, I will become a tree
Alone on a hillside, loving wind and sun,
Waiting for you to return home to me
Though centuries of lonely stars may run.
I'll grow tall and give lots of shade,
Sheltering birds and other bright-eyed things.
Pleased with all the progress that I've made,
I'll spread my leafy branches out like wings.
But oh! Every moment of every dayI'll miss you with the passion of the wind,
Gazing endlessly upon the wayThat without you must empty, empty wind.

2005-10-04T14:09:00.000+08:00

除了想你，除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记，整理心情 (打开心情）
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过，
你在敷衍我一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心，
无力继续这感情
不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

wat i should do??

2005-10-04T13:34:00.001+08:00

the answer u give me is so direct ... the things tat u say & u do i feel so jealous ... i wanna hide myself... i wanna hold on to my tears ... i wanna stay strong... but why i'm getting so affected by it so so much?? how long can i stand??

i seem no longer in ur heart anymore... no longer the one u used to love anymore... is it truth?? i dun wish to think... i dun wanna think... but it seems so unfair.... why ended up become like tis?? am i not good enough?? am i not ur perfect one anymore?? all the things tat i did seem to be thrown into deep sea and never be found anymore.... i dun wanna hide my feelings anymore... i got feelings too... i'm a human too... watever things tat u do... i feel it too... ....

can u tell me wat to do instead?? 要我离开吗？？ u dun need me to lent my shoulder to u anymore... u dun need me to share ur happiness too... cos u had found him le...

seriously, i dunno wat to say... muz i do the things tat wat i dun wish to do again?? is so hurtful... 是时候我放手了吧... i dun wish to see u sad anymore... since u had found ur happiness ... found ur mr. right... i wish u all the best... dun blame me for wat i had did... i jus wan to see u happy...

我会学着放弃你,因为我爱你...

i need to be alone but not now...

2005-10-03T01:35:00.000+08:00

is hard to accept the fact... i say i'll stay strong... but not now... cos i reli need to cry out loud one day when i'm alone.... cos it keep bothering me in my heart... i had to let it out... i cant cry now cos i dun wan to let her see me cry... heez... cos i wan to be guai... n be the cute strong baby in front of her for the last....

i feel so happiness

2005-10-03T01:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... tis few days.... had been thinking alot ba... things tat i never done... i try to do it for her... i promise myself not to cry anymore... not for love again... my tears is dried up le ba... or i reli dun wish to see myself cry anymore...

i'm tired.... tired of entering a new r/s... mayb i'm scare?? haha... no one knows... finally, i realise alot of things... some things can jus be so chang ku.... it comes and go... i'll take it easy... i wont hold on to it anymore longer..not i had stop loving you... but for ur happiness, i'll let u go... guess wat i'm doing now??i'm blogging and i keep smiling... am i crazy?? heez... :)

i decide to write a story of us for tis few years... the happy times... the sad times... even is not very long... 2 years going to 6months?? i think so ba... i know my forever is no longer happen anymore but it'll happen in my heart de... i wan to write out abt us into a book... name title: 'heavenlove' ... for my beloved gal tat i had in my life... cos i wan her to take a look at the book n smile... cos it's so xin fu... :)

i know i cant be the one to take good care of u le... cant be the one to lent u my shoulder anymore... or i'm not the one u need anymore... i dunno wat answer u give him... but i hope wat decision u made i jus wan to see u happy... i know tat u know wat u're doing... so i didnt wanna ask u more abt wat had happen... i choose to keep quiet... and spent the day happily with u now... no matter wat happens, u still my baby... forever.... onli one to stand a place in my heart...

i jus to know the truth....

2005-09-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

[ you never know how i actually feel.. how much i wanted to be.. yet how much i cant be.. a relationship is not just about loving.. we have to be suitable too..why am i not the one? i really need to change ma?]

being with u for so long... 2years going to 3 le ba... tis is the first time i can see ur reaction towards a guy... i dunno wat i feel is rite or wrong... but i jus dun wanna ask u anything in order not to stress u or quarrel with u... so i keep quiet... not tat i dun dare to ask , not i dun bother... is jus i wan to know from u... i know when is time to say u'll tell me ba... ur feelings is with me or not i reli dunno it at all... i can feel it.. but i scare wat i feel is wrong... totally wrong... being together with u i feel happy... but i didnt knew if u're happy too... i hope one day u'll tell me the truth abt ur own feelings...

is been a long time we never reli had a nice talk heart to heart together le... mayb u dun haf the mood?? or i dun even wan to say anything?? no one knows...

wat i can console u is... do wat u think is rite.... if u reli feel so miserable... then change for him ba... i know is hard for u to change but.... u got to do smth in order both get hurts in the end ya... u knoe ur own character most well... wat type of gal u wan to be in future... the decision is urs....

i see wat u type.. been thinking should i keep quiet n dun ask u anything?? or jus act blur as if i dunno anything... but so sorry i cant... i cant see my love one being sad n i jus dun do anything... so i hope u reli can treAT me as ur close friends to talk to me too.... i can be ur listening ear too... jus like the past.... i'm still the same old me... even i feel sad so wat?? i'm facing the fact... cos i know i'll never be able to give u a heart warm family no matter wat happens... so i hope i can help my love one to find her happiness too....

baby... i'm here... i'm always here... dun treat me like an invisiable person... u can share ur burden with me too... give me the chance to do watever things tat i can do for you...

2005-09-29T11:02:00.000+08:00

sorry!!!sorry!!!sorry!!!

u're not naggy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm naggy kk..............................

i wont say anything bad to u anymore....

do u knoe the way u jus treated me, make me wanted to drop my tears??

nvm.... sorry............................

NEW BLOG!

2005-09-29T10:22:00.000+08:00

hey... my baby do for me de ... nice ma?? heez... simple n nice rite?? haha... thanks baby!! muackz... muackz... :)

hmmm... wat should i say?? had a busy day ytd?? tiring sia... celebrate xiao mei bday at my hse... cook steam boat for her... wake up in e early morning to cook 2 eggs for baby to eat... cos is her chinese bday ya... after tat we headed to market to buy all the stuff for steam boat ya... we bought alot of things sia... and things for my hse!! now then i know baby is so naggy!!! bought alot of stuff to use at home ya.. like all no need money de we jus buy buy buy!!! haha... we reach hm le then tidy awhile then go find my mummy le... to take the steam boat stuff... we oso take one manjong table and a manjong tiles sia... haha... save money worz... alot of things had to carry so no choice i asked my uncle to send us back le... we still went to teban market buy things before go hm sia... looks like things wont buy finish de... heez... baby nag sia... say if she go work as air stewess then who'll buy all tis things for me le?? haha... i reply: then i'll go work in e ship like u , so i wont be able to use finish my stuff and wait for u to come back and buy for me.... haha.. wak a joke rite?? heez... mayb 5years down the road... she wont even bother abt me le ar... OpPs.... lalalalalalalalalalalalala.........

things wont be the same anymore...

everythngs...every feelings... everyone... is changing....

even the world is changing..

but why am i the same old me??

am i going to tell myself tat ther's no true love in life??

or am i going to say ther's no real life in the world??

no one knows....

sometimes hiding the truth is good...

it'll be better for the other party....

grown up is a very good thing....

make me feel mature so much suddenly... heez.. i'm not a small kid anymore... i'm not going to let any other bad feeling to make me cry.... make me feel sad anymore.. i'll face the truth... no matter how bad or how worst it can be... i'll still maintain as wat i'm till today....

[to the gal tat i love most]

if i still had a breathe, i'll never leave you..

i'll always be ther for you till the day i had to rest in peace...

till my last breathe, i'll want to be by ur side...

if the sky falls, let me be the one to hold for you...

if no one bothers abt u, then let me be the one to bother...

no one else come close....

i love you...

2005-09-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

好想和你一起
好想一起分享每一刻
好想每天听到你的声音
好想你在我身边明明相爱的两个人等着对方说要离开

如果我的离开能换回快乐的你我是否真的因该离开？
如果没有我的出现你会过得好一点吗？

是我的错。。。

爱却不能说出口。。。

this is nice... one day... this will applies to me le ba.....

2005-09-26T21:12:00.000+08:00

i may not be perfect... i may not be the one u love... i may not be the one u reli need...i may not be the one tat u'll think of ... mayb not even the one u'll called whenever u're down... but i know i can do my best for everything jus for you...

loving is jus blind... everyone is blinded by love.... i admit i'm one of them too...
Wat's is LOVE?? love isn't u had to love a person wholeheartedly?? love the way she/he is?? no matter wat type of person she/he is u gotta accept it... if ther's no love then why is ther relationship/couples?? so many couples were so loving yet some were jus on pending... at times, i did envy others couples tat can last so long so long... but ended up the realtionship still break up... so i shouldn't envy other ppl le ba... i think i should let ppl envy me le ya... i get wat i want... i can be with my beloved gal tat i love so much so much... to see her smile... to protect her ... to give her the best out of the best... i'm happy le... i'm being blessed by my friends...

i decided to put away all my sadness into the deep blue sea... and never search it back anymore... i wanna share all my happness jus with you...
cAn i??? do i hAf the chance??hmMmMm.........
[even if the sky falls.... i'll still be the one to hold it for you...]

2005-09-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

wake up dame early today... waken up by my baby.... cos she had a nitemare ya... tat she dun even realise ya... she cried... mayb friends reli upsad her cos she seem so lonely crying out tat make me awake...or smth bothering her tat i didnt even know??... haiz.... baby... dun think so much kk... i'll be by ur side ya... i'm still here!! :)

went to interview with baby's accompany.... heez... thanks.. :) but seem unsuccessful... the job i still need time to considerate ba... if i reli take in e job, then no time for baby le... should i or not?? reli confused!! i scare i'm bothering her too much le... does she still need me by her side?? or she need was someone else by her side?? hmmm.. am i thinking too much again.. i reli very lost now... i knew she misses someone alot alot... but i choose to keep quiet n dun ask her anything... mayb i jus dun wanna know the truth abt everything?? her holiday is finishing soon... i dun know how long i still can be by her side but i'll cherish it ya... hope she does too...

[][][][]thinking[][][][]missing[][][][]loving[][][][]

2005-09-23T03:07:00.000+08:00

being lazy sia ... nowadays slp in late night n wake up in e late afternoon... like pig sia... hmmm... no work seem bored too sia.... heez... dunno wat i wan sia... got work oso complain no work oso complain... oPps... :x

am i not me anymore?? i seem so happy now cos being with u is wat i wan... quarrels reli make us be closer ma?? dun reli bare to leave u ya... for tis few weeks before u start ur school.. i wanna keep tis meomory btw us... jus simply love u so much...

am i lying to myself?? i can torealate everything... i choose not to show my sadness in front of u... cos i onli wan u to remember my smile on me.. the happy part of me... the happy memory of us...

baby: u're so cute so cute... make me soften my heart... make me love u more when each day passes... i reli dunno how to leave u nor seeing u with other guy... but to see u get ur own happness in hand... i got to leave u ba... u jus love to make me smile...make me cant stop seeing u...leaving u seems so miserable :( [i may not be the one tat u love most now... but u're still the one tat i love most... ALWAYS... deep down in my heart...] i'm jus speechless :(

to all my friends: i wanna go to help my uncle le... working at a ship.. so i wont be very free le... mizz me muz faster meet me kk... or i'll be MIA very soon le ar before i start my work... after my baby n bro birthday i'll start working le!! NO JOKING... pls meet me!!! cos i miss u guys too... sob sob... i dun wish to go ther work de but no chioce ya cos i need money ... i wan to earn lots of money to go JAPan with my baby.... heez.... :)

2005-09-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

hey...long time no blog again ar... i'm jus being lazy ya... or being busy?? heez...
i did alot alot of things ya.. went sun tanning.... play manjong... n lastly, i finally attend my rc bike lesson le... heez... luckily, i still can control e bike well as before ya... haha... :)

now i jus need to pass my ttt n rtt then can take my last 3 lesson le... aHeM!!! anyway i now oso not working le... so i goanna make use of tis time to take my bike n pei all my friends... esp . my BABY!!!! heez...

lesly mei mei... ur birthday is coming... i didnt knoe wat to buy for u... may b shall celebrate out with u ba...arrange one day kk... let me know cos i'm dame free now le... waiting for ur call kk... mizz u lots n my bro ar...

bro bro & baby BIRTHDAY coming too le worz... oPpS... DUN know wat to buy too....hMmMm... i need to go shopping le ya.... to shop ard for present... heez... :) [HEADACHE]

after their bithday, i think goanna start work le ba... my new job think willl be working in ship line as a admit ya... heez... excited sia.. never been ther to work before....but haven confirm cos din know wat's e working lifestyle is abt ya... so shall update again ya...

someone is disturing me le till i cant blog anymore le!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-13T01:55:00.000+08:00

hey hey.... long time no come online blog le ar... hmmmm... cos i'm very sick n busy ya... haha... dame tired...

being late again today when going to work... kana scolded again.. haiz... sob sob.... i knew is my fault but i'm reli sick tat's y make me overslept!!! they jus dun understand... but nvm ya, tis week is my last week le... going to quit le so can pei my baby n my bros!! haha...:)

i'm going to be jobless again ar... so keep me info if got any good job to offer me ya... heez... i'll take tis time to rest well n play well too... heez.. :)

yeah... yUpPer!!!!tml finally can go sun tanning le... is been so long so long i never step into sentosa le bah.... finally can go beach go sun tan with my bro n baby le... haha... i'm so excited abt tml ya... tml we gonna play manjong again worz... OpPs.... heez... is our hobby!!! cant stop playing ... i think we wont get retarded in early times le.... cos playing manjong is good for our mind n health ya... haha... [EXCUSES]

i'm so happy... dunno why... even i had so much stress... so much problems in hand... but i wont feel sad...i wont feel alone... thanks baby... for being ther... ur family reli give me a warmth heart.. give me a warm hse...thanks alot.. i love u lots lots lots.... nothing reli can replace u in my heart anymore le.... [u're my one and only baby]

wat is the world happening??

2005-09-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat to blog oso.. hmmmm.. stop blogging le la... sian ar... feel like qutting my job le.. very stress.... is time to take a break le ba... let my mind n body rest ya... haha... oPpS... I'm being lazy ya... heez ;0)

BABY.....ling.... i'll be there for u guys de kk... haha... any problem jus come find me ya... i hink soon i'll be dame free le lor... no job le.. wanted to hunt for job again... haiz... hmm... i'm jus being lazy le... dunno wat to blog le la.... go sleep le... bye

STRESS!!!!!

2005-09-01T15:02:00.000+08:00

i miss you...alot...how i wish it'll never end...[love you]

i'm so stress over some stuff... my works... my family... everything... i dunno wat to do at all... all seem making me crazy le....i dun even dare to blog now... scare i say smth wrong?? haha... okie... i think i dun even bother ba... tis is my blog!! who cares rite....

hmmm.... suddenly i miss those days with ling.... sun zi... when we together... we had so so much funs...but now all seem so bz le ar... ahem...when is our next outing together?? heez....

tml finally going to my bike rc le worz... been slacking so long le... tml one short take all ya... i think tml i'll pass my ttt le la... cant effort to fail again le... cos someone is ther to pei me worz... my lucky star!! haha... oPps.... pray for me ya... -_-

hmmm.... my best frend dun even wan me le ar... he onli cares for his gaming now... dun even wan pei me le... he change le... sob sob... so angry n disappointed with him now.... haiz... nvm ... i shall be myself lor.. is fine with me... :(

y everything seem so selfish?? to get wat they wan they can jus do anything to get it... i jus cant do it... after tis job, then i know wat is selfish.... haiz... so miserable with my life now... i like force myself wearing a mask watever i do or whenever i go... i feel like crying out loud cos i cant take it anymore le... anyone wan lent me ur shoulder??? hmmmm.... i wanna stay strong but i mayb soft times too.... i can act as if i'm ok but it hurts in my heart..........

when i'll see myself smiling again without a mask......let's wait ba.... got to go....[back to work]

2005-08-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

Not seeing you is so hard its killin me!
And it taunts me because when I close my eyes...
guess who I see?
I see you...and only you

I see your face.
I see you everywhere
all the time
and in any place.
I'm going crazy and its cause of you that I'm completely insane!
I love you more than life itself an my feelings for you is something I can't explain.
Loving you and gettin love back is betta than all the money and riches in the world...
I thank God ev'ry single day for choosing me to be your one and only ..

heavenlove forever

2005-08-28T17:01:00.000+08:00

There are many things that I want to be
Let me tell you in case you don't see
Let it be me
Because I want to be...
The shoulder you cry on when nothing goes your way
The person who tells you...when no one else will say
The one to catch you when ever you may fall
If ever you need anything I'm at your beck and call
The first thought you have upon waking
As long as you can give I'll keep taking
I want to be your joy when you have pain
Your sunshine when you are soaked with rain
Your strength when you are weak
The one who loves to hear you speak
The reason for the smile upon your face
The one you run to when you have been disgraced
Let me be your reasoning when you are confused
Your comfort when you feel your being used
The one who holds you when you are afraid
The one who does the things you never said

2005-08-27T05:45:00.000+08:00

muz be wondering y i'm still awake at tis time??hmmm... i went drink after my work today... sitting alone at a cafe... seeing alot of couple walking pass....hugging each other...so lovely...i cried... for dunno wat reason... wondering if my love one is beside me then is so good...waHhHh..i miss u alot alot alot...but i dun even dare to msg u....i scare to quarrel with u.. i scare u say harsh words to me again...i reli feel so sorry abt wat happen today but wat else can i do to make u feel beta??i know i'm jus angry n say all those words tat i'm not supposed to say but i had said le...i cant take back my words too..if i know u'll become like tat then ytd i wont even say anything le...i wont even worry abt u wat time u wanna go hm le...reli ...i regret sending tat msg.... jus cos of tat msg make everything turns out to be like tis!!!!

KRIZ!!!!wat are u doing??are u mad???or insane???y making ur love one sad again!!wat else wat i do to make u feel beta??pls tell me...........................

2005-08-27T05:26:00.000+08:00

been thinking alot alot alot... am i reli tat bad?? mayb i'm... i cant let u feel anything at all... r u asking me to let u go?? are you?? if yes, then i'll do it then... i wanted go find u ... but wat kind of reply is tat when i say wan go find u? i know i make u angry make u feel sad... but do i deserve tis kind of treatment from u?? YES!! i deserve it.. i know all along i'm jus holding u on... am i rite?? u msg me jus now say u HATE me?? wat can i reply?? wat else wat i say?? hating me make u feel beta ma?? if yes go ahead n hate me ba.. other than tat i reli dunno wat else i can do le.. i dun even dare to do anything now to u.. dun even dare to call u nor msg u at all...

is there still love btw us?? or we jus holding on to each other>??i know there wont be any ending but loving u is it wrong too??y my care n concern become e tot of controlling u...do i reli controll u so so much?? do i reli like tat JASON??to the extend of tat possive??AM I??by giving u all e stuff tat u like is not to make u feel guilty or pity me!!i jus wanna give u e things tat u like it onli...cos u're my love one... i know u will be happy but u dun seem it... u seem to pity me being with me pei me...is it like tat??

u say i'm being possive all along... u say i dun even care abt ur feelings n hurt u..i onli know how to make u sad n spoil ur day.. but when i know watever things tat i do for u n other ppl get e credits, then how i feel?? i didnt say anything too cos i know we had no chioce.. i never blame u or wat...cos i know we got to be like tis..

after all, i know is my fault for saying all e harsh things to u.. i make u sad i spoil ur day i ADMIT.. but will u give me any chance to save it?? u give me a death sentence le... u think i like to compare so much?? u think i feel good too??let me tell u.. NO,i'm not!!!!!cos jus one point he win me all e way le , HE'S A GUY AND I'M NOT!!!! wat else wat i compare then?? no matter how i compare i still cant change the fact tat i'm a gal lor!!!!

loving me make u so miserable make u feel so not worth it then choose ur own way to go ba...jus tell me n i wont disturb u anymore...if tis is wat u wan...............................................................................

2005-08-22T16:43:00.000+08:00

i'm here again...heez... muz be too free le.. keep coming blogging my blog... i wont let it rot anymore ya... oPps....

im SICK!!!having flute n sore thorat le... so cold sia... dun feel like working lor but no chioce ar... i cant take MC anymore le... had been slacking alot alot le... so no chioce ya.... anyone wan to take care of me?? haha... :)

THE MAID is out... but y am i so bz tat i dun even haf yime to go watch it?? or no one is free to pei me go watch?? hmm.... my bro say is nice worz... so muz go watch ya... heezz.... tis few days i'll find one day to go or i'll jus go watch it myself ba... oPps...

i forgot to mention abt e PURPLE ROSE tat i buy for her!!! is last week i think?? i surprise her with tat purple rose tat she like ya... cos cant find lor.... tat is natural purple rose not dye de.. i find tat for very long time le... finally let me find it ya... heez... some more e rose is very beautiful...oPpS... I reli like it alot too.. hope u like it too... As wat e florist shop say it it represent "FOREVER LOVE" ....i hope it happens too... but i know it'll never...
thank god for giving me so much things tat i wanna do i had done...i wont blame for any unfairness anymore le ya...

i pack my room ytd... i throw alot alot of stuff ya... cos i decided to paint my room soon ba... i du n wan my room to be so kiddy anymore le... so alot of stuff i jus throw away le... e past will be the pass ya... so i threw everything away i dun think i need it ya...i wan to make my room look like a room now... heez... wanted to paint my room lime green, guess it will be nice ba... waiting to see my new room.. haha...

whenever listening to the tone tat i listen now i always feel so depress.... oh my god... i shall stop listening to it ba... heez.. i tot u'll come take ur hp today n can come find me cos i'm reli sick... u say he'll come fetch u hm... so i dun think u'll come find me take ur hp too le.. i'm so excited to take e hp for u but y u dun seem u like e hp ... like u dun seem to bother...okie ba... i shall not say anything too lor... tat's y i jus reply u so simple...

take good care my baby.... i dunno if ur prsentation is gd or bad cos i'm too sick to ask u anything le ba... but i hope u'll had a good prsentation today... i had hope in u de... miz u lots.. love u...

2005-08-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.... dunno y suddenly feel so depress again... y nowdays i keep having mood swing... dun dare to turn to anyone too.... jus wanna face myself rite now alone... am i thinking too much le ma?? i dunno too... can i walk out of my sadness now.... i hate tis feelings... y muz i haf it?? haiz... i'm reli reli speechless rite now le... my tears flow down when i saw my meomeries now...
i'm happy being with u cos i cherish every min... every sec... every single day being with u... but knowing e true seem so terrible... each day pass, i feel tat loving u seem so happy but wat if e day tat i had to leave u?? then wat muz i do??

wat i can do now is to cherish e times being with u... give u wat u wan wat u like.. jus wanna see u happy... alots of things being hide is good ba... i shall not wan to know e truth anymore...knowing e thruth is hurtful... i think is no longer impt ya... wat's most impt now we're happy...

i leave u with my heart
i know i'm no longer impt in ur heart
i know i had no courage to say goodbye
to leave u sliently when u found ur happness

is it all fated tat we cant be together
when i put in my heart n soul
to get back lonelyness n being alone
i know u wont tell me e truth is for my own good

2005-08-20T15:37:00.000+08:00

again my break time i was here to blog again.... alot alot of things happen tis few weeks ya...
no time to come update!! heez... celebrate ling birthday ytd... even though very less ppl but we did enjoy ya... but seem to lack of something ya...dunnno y... haha....we went black ya, oh my god so little ppl were there.... but so far so gd ba... as long as ling enjoy herself ya...

ling... grown up le worz... hope everything will be fine n sucessfully....i'm trying very hard to entertain u le ar...haf u as my mei is my honour....heez.... thanks for everything kk....no matter wat, we muz always stay in contact kk... mizZzz u lots....

2005-08-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

had not been updating my blog again le ar....so sorry... had a happy week tis few days... i'm okie le.... even i dunno wat i'm doing now is rite or wrong... but as long i know i'm happy can le.... i can torealate everything now ba....some times i may be jealous or angry but is jua a while ba....i wont give up my fav things anymore cos of other ppl le... i like wat i like not cos of other ppl have it then i give up!! i wont do all tis childish things anymore le... i feel like i'm growing up alot le... am i?? haha...i hope so...

all my frends...thanks for accompany me for e past fews week when i reli down.....dun worry abt me anymore cos i'm fine le.... dun need to pei me suffer le kk....sorry.... :)

i know u're happy with everything now ba... i know wat we're doing ya... true love still exsist... heavenlove stays in our heart sliently... i'll choose to love u sliently... i wont show how gd am i or how sad or how happy am i now le.... holding u together with me till e end of time always is my wish... but now i'll put it in my dream le... i reli hope to see u do great with everything...

be4 i go, i reli wan to spent happily with u... tat's all... i love you :)

lastly, i long time never go my bike lesson le worz...shall go update le ya..haha..:p

gtg le.....stop my blog now...go sleep n continue my dream of u...

2005-08-05T14:13:00.000+08:00

wat a tiring day!!i jus finish manjong session with jayius,daniel n his father tis morning n went to work straight ya...hahah...so dame tiring but jus cant to slp....nvm la, not e first time le....tis few weeks almost everyday like tat sia...dunno y suddenly crazy of playing manjong....haha...

bro...so sorry ar...cos pei me play manjong then had a small quarrel with my xiao mei ar...heez...sorry la mei...dun angry with him kk....is not his fault is my fault ya.....
anyway,thanks for being there ya.....

went to work today, tot it will be dame bz like hell in e end ended up we cant sell in e morning cos of e stupid sales!!!then onli started selling at ard one plus lor...dame it!!i'm so tired le still make me do nothing in e morning...keep falling asleeep while working sia...haha...oPpS...:)

got to go back to work le...sianz...going back to earn more money!!!heez..byez

2005-07-19T14:28:00.000+08:00

i'm on my break time now ar... dun feel like eating so come online to blog ya...rainning heavily sia...so dun feel like eating...skip ba...ytd went for my bike lesson n i pass worz....haha....finally now lesson 5 le...but my poor TTT haven pass yet!! argh...!! dunno how... sob sob... ;(

had a big quarrel with her in e early morning... i'm jus TOO TIRED!! i didnt mean anything de lor...i'm jus telling her if u bz then no need to wake me up is ok de....i say tis wrong meh?? haiz.. i dunno wat i do then is right to her... i'm sorry tat i make u angry.. but do u haf to hang up my call then?? suan le, i dun wish to say anything else le since u say till i'm so bad le so be it lor...i'm jus a bad person anyway...

y muz i still worry so much for u when ther's already sum1 ther??

he seem to be ther taking over my place le...

buy things for u to eat...drive u hm...thank god....

when is time to let go....then let it go....sound familar??gal...is tis words fm ur month be4??haha...

baby...when u're ready to let go of me then let me know...cos i didnt know how to let u go totally!!

call u all nite...msg u didnt reply...waiting for ur call all nite....didnt knew wat happen to u anymore...mayb i'm not e one tat can be able to console u anymore....

daniel call me say he's heart broken!!!he cry....again i heard sum1 tat so close to me tat cry....haiz....poor daniel....dun worry still haf me!!!i'll pei u go when u wan to go kk....u wan go drink i'll go drink with u till hang over kk..haha... i beg u long time never drink till like tis le ar....later we fight again like last time when we both are drunk sia...OpPs!!heheh....

2005-07-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

i know we got to leave apart one day

i know u're dragging with me now

i know all e reasons....

i'm not blind at all i can see wat u're doing tis few days

i wanted to keep all promises to u too

but can i keep all of it ??

some i can keep but some i still haf to throw it away when e day u left me...
i may have hurt u instead...do u think i'm feeling good too??
do i wan all tis to happen??i dun think u wan it too...is all fated!!we jus cant be together forever but one thing i know we can cherish e time being with u now...

till e day u left i want to see u happy in terms of everything

i wan u to find ur own happiness

i wan u to haf ur own happpy family

u can dun bother wat'll happen to me in future but u jus cant forget tat ther's still someone tat loves u deeply waiting for u down e road...if no one cares for u ...rem,i'm always here...

i reli dunno wat else i can do le other than cherish e time every min...every hour...every sec...being with u now....

i'll always be ur be baby

2005-07-13T15:12:00.000+08:00

i dont know if i can keep my promises to u...

i dont know wat will happen to us in future...

but i reli wan to keep u in my heart deeply...

i wanna hold u tite always but i know i cant...

i wan u to wake me up every morning...

i wan u stay by my side to share my happiness....

i wan to make u be e most happiness princess in my life....

i reli wish to keep my every promises to u....

if ther's a next life, my decision will still choose loving you to be my baby...

whenever i see u smile...i know my life is full of happiness....

i'll choose to let go of u when u find ur happiness cos i jus simply love u...

is my BIRTHDAY!!!

2005-07-13T14:58:00.000+08:00

hey hey... sat went choclate bar for celebration sia.... haha.. e first thing went e drink is here i already being force to drink le... ang meimei!!! u very naughty cos u're e first one to ask me bottoms up!!!argh!! but is alright, cos is my bday wor... kind of sad ar.. cos i know alot of ppl dun seem to be happy sia... opPs!!all my frends, i'm very sorry abt it!!NO MORE NEXT TIME LE KK... thanks for everyone tat came... i'm reli glad to see u guys agan kk..

daniel....thanks for ur ex. watch present...so cute..i lky it alot!!

ling n hs...ur watch i lky it too cos i can wear it to work every day sia....haha :)

all my frends..reli thanks for coming kk....i know is not tat enjoyable but after all i apperiate!!

baby:i went to see ur blog jus now le... hmmm... thanks for everything tat u done for me... ytd cake was a surprise for me... thanks... o reli dunno wat else i can say le... but i'm touch ya!! i know i'm growing up le, didnt u see it?? dont u like e way i'm now?? not being unreasonable to u anymore or throwing anymore temper for no reason le..??? heez...:) love u lots!!

my birthday WISH: hmMm... actually my wish is jus simple!! [i jus wan to see my all frends to stay happy always!!esp. my beloved one to find her happiness truly...]

2005-07-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

oh...long time no blog again le... went to my practical lesson 4 today... so fun sia!! today is my first time pillion ppl sia.... poor ang meimei become my pillion today... then i realise she was heavy sia.... haha.... then she scold me ... after a while we change seat le , i become her pillion sia... so dangerous!! the instructor ask me to buy insurance for the next practical with her le cos may cos any incident sia... heez... reli had a fun day today sia.... phew...

gal... let's pass e next practial kk... had fade in me la... i'll guai guai sit behind u n dun move k... haha...oPpS!!